My Kind Of Art

*This is just a side note; I wrote this for someone very important to me, I don't expect anyone to read it, definetly not the whole thing, but it was a random spur of the moment peice of writing but I meant every bit. Oh and ifbits dont make sense it's because it was 2am and I'm on valium and other crap at the moment. Oh and this is something I consider art. Anyways, enjoy*






Valium, Anti-depressants and Lack of Sleep = Good Blog
Current mood: tired


Well
Here I am
Sitting in my room
Head spinning
And all I can think about doing is writing a little blog about my life

Wow…
My life…
I try to think about what my life is
And all that I can see is a picture
A picture of a person
A picture of a person close to me
No, closer to me than anyone else in the world
I see Brylie
I see the love of my life
My whole life
I see her smiling
I see her sitting… Just waiting for something
I imagine she’s waiting for me
I want to believe that that smile I can see comes from me
Because she’s my life
Without her
I would have nothing
I want to be with her forever
I’m sitting here and I’m in agony
Because I know I can’t see her
She’s not here with me right now
I need her to be
More than she will ever know
More than anyone needs anyone
I need her to make me smile again
I need her to smile for me again
I need her to hold my hand and look into my eyes
Oh her eyes…
They are amazing
Not just the deep brown colour with waves of hazel
But what I can see in her eyes
I can see her
I can truly see her soul
I can see who she is as a person
And I can see myself reflected in her eyes
And that’s why I love her eyes the most
Because I can see my reflection in them
Just because I’m there with her
The fact that the window to her soul has my image burned into it
I see her eyes now
And they make me feel like something…
Anything…
Which is important now
Because without her I would be nothing
She is my shoulder to lean on
She pick’s me up when I fall down
She warms my heart when I feel cold
And she holds me tight when I start to shake
And we have a bond
A bond that is unique
Something that we will share forever
Something that can never break
Love
Love is something that will never break
It can end
Oh love can end in pain and sorrow
But it can never break
The way I feel about her will always be the same
Unbreakable
I’ll never stop loving her
But even if I did
We would still have the bond together
Of love
Perhaps love which has been lost
But not love that has been broken
Or love that will be forgotten
Because I could never forget
I could never lose everything I had with her
With my love…
With Brylie Smith
Those two words even when I write them make my heart yearn
Every time I hear them said my heart stops
For just a second
Because I can feel that love
Not just the love I always have for her
And always will have
But that love that come when you need to be with that person
When someone says her name
I need to be with her
I would move mountains to be with her
But then I realise I’m sitting here
Without her
And her name is ringing in my head
And there is no mountain in my way
But I still cannot manage to be with her
My heart breaks
Because there is so little distance between us
But I still cannot see her
If I could I would
But I take solace in the fact that she is having fun
She is with people who she cares about
Whom she loves
Maybe not in the sense that I love her
But still a love
Still a bond between them
And no matter how jealous I might be of them
For they are with her at this very moment
I know that they feel a fraction of what I feel
I know how they want and need to be with her
Because she is such an amazing person
You cannot simply spend a day with her and leave
She is a person who draws you back
And makes you feel feelings which you never thought possible
She makes you feel happy
even where there is no reason other than the fact you are with her
Even the anticipation and suspense before you see her makes you happy
Because you can think that soon you will be with her
This amazing and wonderful person
A beautiful person
The most beautiful person in the world
Not just in looks
But deeper than that
Down in her heart you can see true beauty
You can see that every beat she beats for someone other than herself
You can see the passion inside her
The passion for other people
The way she treats others
The way she treats those she cares about
The amazing way she makes people feel
And for what?
This amazing person gets nothing in return
Not even a small fraction of what she gives to other people
If I could give back half of everything she gave to me it would be extraordinary
Simply because it would be so much
She gave me the power to do these things
She gave my feelings which many people have never felt before
She gave me love and adoration
She gave me her heart and she took mine
And she took care of it
Not for herself
But for me
She took care of my heart
She holds it in her hands and can feel every beat
Even at this very moment my heart beats for her
The very core of my being yearns for her
The chance of being with her again drive me through another day
But without her the say would be nothing
I would have nothing to strive for
But I can strive for happiness
I can strive to make her happy
To give her back some of what she gave to me
This amazing person
Brylie Smith…
The most amazing person I have ever met
She has come through a lot in her life
And still manages to put on a happy face
Not only that
But she gives everyone else that chance to be happy
If they let her into their lives
Because if you let her in
She can touch your heart
She touched my heart
She has my heart
And when she did touch my heart she changed my world
She made colours shine brighter
She made music sweeter
Even the air I breathe is now tied to her
Every breath is so sweet
Because she gave me my breath
And without her I wouldn’t be able to breathe
I don’t have any idea how much time has passed
Or how much I have written
But there will never be enough time
Or enough words
To tell you how amazing this person is
To tell you how amazing Brylie Smith is
To see how amazing she is
You need to look into her eyes
And see what I’ve seen
I’ve seen happiness…
And a future
And I’ve seen into her soul
A pure soul
Untainted
Untouched by anything other than goodness
Because in her heart is only good
The only things she does is to benefit others
The only reason she gets up every day is to fight for others
To give them meaning
To give them reason
She gave me reason
My whole life now
Is built upon what she has taught me
Even if in 10 years she won’t be with me
And I’ll be all alone without her
I’ll still have everything she gave me
And I’ll still have that love
That untouchable
Unbreakable
Love
That overrides everything else
That makes you think your invincible
That feeling where no matter what happens your still going to be happy because you have it
If my whole world collapsed around me
But I still had her
And I had that love
Then I could still wake up every day with a smile
And I could see that smile in her eyes
She’s an amazing person
A Beautiful person
A kind person
An incredible person
A gorgeous person
And most importantly…
She’s the love of my life
And even though I might still be young
I know that she is the one true love for me
The only person that will ever make me feel the way I feel now
The only person that I will miss this badly when they are gone
And the only person who will ever have my heart
And the only person I trust to keep it safe forever
I love Brylie Jane Smith
And that love is unbreakable…

I read about 2/3 of it.
But from what I can deduce, your pretty lovesick.
I think this counts as art by a landslide.

You should write novels.

Hehe Good job

I never thought that anyone would even get through half
And yes
Very lovesick
We've been together for almost a year
11 and a half months
Best times of my life

Aww, Thats great!


Wait... Scratch the novel thing.
You should write speeches.
Or monologues.

Nation wrote:

Aww, Thats great!


Wait... Scratch the novel thing.
You should write speeches.
Or monologues.

Haha but I wouldn't know what to write about
I can only write like this about things important to me
Like this
This was important to me
And just a spur of the moment thing

I used to only be able to write spur of the moment phrases or lyrics...
But then my music teacher explained some things about words and sentences and imagery... and It all kind of clicked.
Now writing creatively is like a second language to me.
Creative writing = Win.

mcr666 wrote:

I didnt know waht else to say, it was really, really long

That's cute ^-^

mcr666 wrote:

I didnt know waht else to say, it was really, really long

Nooo bouncing is a good thing =)

And yea it was really long
Really really long